I have had cancer 4 times some 2009, the most recent being summer last year. I have lost my left leg below the knee and I have had 4 major lung operations. My body is pretty wrecked. I also have a number of other unrelated but very limiting health issues which have stripped me of the things I enjoyed the most in life one by one such as cooking, gaming, reading etc. These were my main distractions. At this point I have been without a companion for 10 years and I'm torn about how I feel about it. On the one hand I'm desperately alone and all I crave is a tight hug and on the other hand I'm completely worthless to anyone. With my health issues and potential crappy life expectancy I am a giant red flag. I've battled as hard as I can over the last decade but I've got nothing to show for it. I managed to get back to work after 8 years but that only lasted 5 weeks before the disease returned. I'm feel alone in every way possible and I don't know what to do. Sorry for the rant :( Edit: Gold? I feel like a fraud. I was only venting. Thank you kind stranger.